To know my strength
“No matter where life takes you, never trust your fears because they don’t know your strength. This has been my mantra for a long time.”
Canada 🇨🇦 “Early on, I didn’t want to be called a survivor. I didn’t want people to feel sorry for me. I adopted the word “warrior” pretty early on and that word encompasses how I feel so much. When I feel that this is too much for me, I can’t do this, I tell myself: “It’s OK to feel what you feel, it's OK to be scared, but there’s no way that I’m giving up.” Throughout this process of chemotherapy, I had fallbacks. The first time around, my treatment was not working. For me this was worse news than when they told me I had cancer. This was in January 2020. This is when everyone is looking forward to the new year. I was wondering if I was even going to be here in the next few months. It bothered me that there was no solution.
They were going to stop the treatment. I took my health into my own hands, I was adamant with the doctor in helping him to find a solution for me. I have been doing aggressive cancer treatment ever since, I’m in treatment every Friday. Yesterday, I received some good news. The tumor has diminished to almost non-existent. I would require surgery as a final step. Because of COVID-19, right now the hospitals are not operating. I’m still an urgent case but they won't be able to operate me until the coronavirus calms down and I don’t think anyone can guess when this will be. My chemo treatment will continue until I will be able to have my operation. This Friday was supposed to be my last treatment. This was a bit of a bummer. I have to refocus my thoughts, it’s something out of my control. I am looking forward to seeing all the staff for my treatment because they motivate me as well to get better.
One thing that I read everyday is: “No matter where life takes you, never trust your fears because they don’t know your strength.” This has been my mantra for a long time.”
