By unlocking memories

Mexico 🇲🇽 “I’m a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and that really coloured my world. Even before I remembered it happened, I was very fearful of telling the truth. That led me to alcohol. My feelings were amped up more than the norm, so when I found a substance that toned things down, it was a welcome relief. It took years before the sexual component came to the forefront. It began to show up in dysfunctional, abusive relationships. My sponsor at Alcoholics Anonymous said there was something deeper going on.

That led to a few years of personal therapy to start unlocking memories. I started to let go of feeling like I needed a relationship to get whole and I started to get whole myself. That's when my true passions and desires started to channel through me.

I decided to leave California for Mexico. All my friends and family said: ‘What do you mean you just want to go out in your van and figure out life?’ It was in Mexico that I went to a Native American drumming ceremony where you go in to a trance. Guess who was there? My perpetrator. He said: “I need you to forgive me because I can't move on. You've got to realise I would never have done this if I had known the damage it would do. But you have to know the same was done to me and it’s all I know.””